Yay for Me, Gold Star Day...January 21, 2022

Yay for me, gold star day...magic words, yes, indeed.

And I promise you, my friends, they are balm to the soul. For she turned to these words, when I began to speak them inside my head, slowly at first and gaining speed.

What? She seemed to say...

...you have not spoken to me this way, at least not enough.

And I would say back to her...well I must now, I need you. The stakes are way too high here and we are in something hard and tough and just plain odd. It is the two of us, you and I and she and me.

More tenderly I began to speak to her, but matter of factly too...well I need you on board with all this mess, and I have heard that the best way to motivate is to encourage you, me.

And there was that gorgeous one in the tutu from long ago and far away, a child and woman too. My self and my soul, she began to weep, for her wounds were deep before surgery and beyond, after too much...

...you can do it better, what are you doing, and others are better at everything.

Oh we had had our sweet hours and weeks and years for sure, like you and yours, but there had been mean and awful times too. Times I had doubted her, berated and told her...

...just do better, okay just be better too.

You know how it goes, I bet and know you do.

But I began to look at her, reach out to hold her more. To see her, with her gaping wound, so clear and out front now. And she tried her best to believe that I would keep speaking more kindly to her...that there would be more gold star days.

She believes me more, because I believe more.

Yes, I promised, when sadness swallowed me. When I would collapse in tears and disappear with no words for awhile...then I promised to love her, to cherish and be there and carry her if she needed that some days and nights and other times too.

Yes, I told her, me, that I would love us forever, that we could do this thing we had to do, we just had to do, together, no way around, must go through. And after we had rocked it, healed it, walked again and mended ourselves...

...I would never again forget some simple words...

Gold star day, yay for me. Yay for you.

Try them, these magic words. And love too, yes indeed.